I've copied/paste the following from Cindys thread -
Tricia, I looked for the new thread but it must not be up yet. I am in the waiting room right now. I thought I could talk myself out of it, but I just can't. I have my regular 3 month check-up on August 16th, and I am already worrying myself sick about it. I do this every three months, so it's nothing new. I become weepy, withdrawn, and feel as if none of my family understands when I try to explain how I feel.
I keep hoping this will go away, and it has improved tremendously, but I am 4 1/2 years out and still feel very, very anxious every three months. I think that going every three months is probably a constant reminder that I had a high risk of recurrence and my Oncologist has kept me on this program for 4 1/2 years now. I used to go every 2 months, then he upped it to 3 months. I also think when he changes it to 6 months or a year, I will still freak when I have a twinge.
This just sucks. I am functional and everyone thinks I am a-ok, but inside my gut is rumbling and I feel as if I want to jump out of my skin. I know I am the only one who can change this, and I do work on it. It's just hard and I wanted to say "I WAS IN THE WAITING ROOM". Anyone else?
Thanks Tricia, I do think the Waiting Room is an excellent idea!!!
Okay Cindy, NOW you're in the waiting room! Pat will pour you a drink by the water feature in the garden while we all gather to hold your hand:) (Hurry up Pat!!! mine's a dry white wine please)
Cindy, I dont think your onc is doing you any favours by dragging you back for appts every three months, I also have a high recurrance risk along with many other's here, but only see my onc once a year unless I have a problem.
It just leads to more stress and anxiety, and if you're feeling okay, why bother???
I think we need to help ourseleves leave cancer in the past somewhat and it's more difficult for you, if you're seeing the onc so often as if you're still in tx!
This is really not the norm, and while it may have been reassuring in the early days, I'd speak to him/her about stretching the appt's out further now.
Cindy, I doubt you have anything to worry about, you're feeling well, and almost five years out!!! Thats a great milestone to reach for anyone, so take confidence in that.
While your appt is worrying of course, tell yourself it's only a routine appt, and it's not as if you found a lump or have pain and worrying about bone mets or something.
Please try to reassure yourself, the Dr can only do so much.
Of course we're all here for you through the waiting but I have a hunch you'll be fine:)
Slainte!!! and ((((hugs))))